Yaknow... you never realize how much CRAP you've accumulated over the years until you start packing.

I've never shredded as much paper as I have done in YEARS as I've done today and last night. I've shredded old bills, really crappy stupid stories that I started writing that I'm much too embarrassed to even read or look at, other crap that I got in the mail...

And then theres going through all the stuff that you actaully have to see about giving some of it away. Oh god. Oh god. OH GOD.

I have...SO... MUCH...CRAP. I have all these dolls which I still don't know where the hell I'm going to put them, I have so much art crap (WAY TOO MUCH ART CRAP!!!!) SO many books (which are super heavy....)so many pieces of furniture which I don't know if I can keep or not... Stuffed animals everywhere.

And most importantly...CLOTHES. Yes, I have one thousand too many pieces of clothing. In fact, going through all my stuff has finally made me realize that I really should stop buying clothes because I don't need them. But the problem is when I try and go through them I just can't get rid of them because I figure someday, some place far far away in the future, I'm going to wear them.

I said that last year. And the year before. And the year before. *sigh*

Anyway. So yes, I've been finally getting around to packing. I really wish I haven't slacked on this stuff. I really, really, really wish I hadn't. (I also didn't realize prior to this how much crap I had. Had I known, I would have done all this about April.)

I'm also trying to sell more things on eBay but unfortunately my camera keep stelling me that my camera's memory card is full, but theres nothing on it. So I think I screwed it up or something when I was taking off all my pictures from it. And I can't put the pictures in the camera's internal memory, it's a long complicated story but basically the plug that came with the camera is a peice of shit, and well, I kinda didn't get one with the replacement I got. In the end my dad and I just got fed up and decided to just use the memory card.

And now I fucked up the memory card. NYWAHHADFADSFADS!! I'll get Josh to look at it, he'll probably figure it out

So anyway... I'm going to be a busy little bee the next few days... But I'm going to try and post the work that I have to post (which is a lot, so I apologize ahead of time for the art dump!). Also, for the majority of next week ,I will not be here either as we're going to take my dad's urn to Ottawa so he can be buried with Grandpa...*sigh*

In a way I'm looking forward to it, because I get to have some time off of work and I get to get away for a while, but at the same time..Well I think it's obvious why I'm not looking forward to it. But once Daddy is there, and all this funeral business is done, then it'll probably be easier to heal. And when I move in with my Skwishie that's going to take a lot of pain off my shoulders as well too (a lot of things that I actually would not rather talk about, but trust me it'll help once I'm out of here.) It'll be nice when I can start a new life so to speak and be able to think about my dad's life and not his death (being here is so hard - my room is right next to the room my dad always used to fiddle around with things in, and him not being there causes...a lot of pain, needless to say.)

But, of course, first, I actually gotta get through all this crap. My god. I seriously feel like I'll never get through this. And again...ORIGINALS ARE UP FOR GRABS. If we did an art trade, and you want the original, YOU CAN HAVE IT. No charge or anything. It'll be nice to thin out my art collection. For those who have already asked if they can have originals yours are on thier way. I'm also happy to send my fanarts (NOTE: -ALL- Rammstein fan art is already being given away!) too, but not any of my original artwork with characters and things. (Sorry. I have like this..attachment to them. Maybe some of the older crappy art, but as of right now no original character work. XD).. .so yes...

Anyway, other then that, to be honest, I'm taking a break from going through my stuff. I look around my room right now and even tho I've been doing this since noon I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere. 0.0 Dammit why can't my dolls walk there themselves??? Altho it's kinad fun going through things because then you get to look at things you haven't seen in years like yearbooks and things that were given to you from friends And even some of your older drawings you've done make you smile (I mostly smile because they suck so bad so I just laugh.)

Anyway, if you guys might want to have a look at what I'll be selling on eBay the next while, my seller id is jessiekatt Mostly just clothes and crap but maybe I'll sell something someone will find useful

Anyhoo, everybody, I'm gonna have to get back to business....*puts on protective gear* I'M GOIN IN!